Monday, September 20, 2004

The Weekend Report

Was the weather beautiful or WHAT? I wonder why after a hurricane the weather looks so lovely. Is it just after you have been thru hell anything seems better? Or is it just really truly that way.

I was remembering last year after Isabel hit here. Destroyed my home. I lost pretty much everything. My life too, was in upheaval. But now like the weather, things look pretty good and bright and I thank God for that. My friend always said If you are going through hell...well then, keep running and get yourself through it. And friends, I am happy to report that there is an other side to she $#!T we all have to go through and sometimes it seems it will never end but it does. Maybe you will not be immune to other heartbreaks and dramas in your life. But just to know that if you keep writing the story and keep trying to survive it....you will suceed. Maybe I could write a whole long blog on the subject of heartbreak...some of which I am well versed. But maybe too I would want to write of hope and survival. Not sappy Deliah stuff...not to say that maybe some of those stories are not real....they just seem so quick and storybook. You hear the gloss and ignore the loss and have some cotton candy story to tell. But I think the real story, the true happy endings are those about humban endurance and triumph in the face of tragedy. And the happy ending that follow as a result. Some endings expected some unexpected. I guess that is the beauty of it all. Let me think on that......

Friday, September 17, 2004

Attack of the Fatigue Monster

worked....too....much...overtime..........fatigued....beyond belief........must....make post

Thursday, September 16, 2004

Moving to the middle of the short bus...

Ok soooo....last night I was working on my blog and I wanted to add an counter on to my site. I believed it to be easy...just get some free code and put it on there. But for some reason...it took me all night. Probably thanks to my 56K Dial Up speedway that I have up in my home. One day, One day.....I will be able to afford the luxury of a cable modem. One day I will be telling my children about how in MY DAY....when we surfed the net we did it thru the telephone lines....after we trudged through the snow, with no shoes, walking a mile to school. My next quest is to find out ...if it is possible...how to allow my so-called-friends post their smart @$$ comments on my blog. So far they tell me it is a members only situation and most ....if not all are either:

A) not persuaded by my whinings to get an acct.
B) too lazy to fill out the forms
C) equate my blog as something to READ and as I am told friends don't let friends read.
think of the possibilities... all the misinformation I could spread...muah ah ah ah>

So I will have to research and educate myself how to lead them, someone, anyone here..unsuspectingly....to read my blog.

ANYWAY....back to my original point. I finally got a counter on my site so I can see how many people are NOT reading my daily rant. In my quest, I revisited an old site that I promised myself numerous times to read frequently...but didn't...because I am a world class procrastinator....HTML GOODIES...I love that site and one day when I really read it enough I can put a link on here so you can enjoy it too. They think counters take too much memory and are more frivilous and they are correct....but I just wanted to because I am a Rebel...without a Clue and proud of it. So anyway....that was my small step yesterday to the middle of the short bus...where I am still wearing my helmet....chestplate....headgear...but I have only licked the windows maybe 3 times. :)

Wednesday, September 15, 2004

Pennies from Heaven

Ok so check it out. It is an interesting, beautiful moment for all the chaos loving, people observers of the world. So it is raining outside....and this storm is very violent and here I sit in my cube farm with a view, watching and waiting for all my father's warnings about the "50 ways lightening can kill you EVEN through a window!!" and trying to reassure myself that the thin strips of vertical blinds will be enough to save me from almost certain death...or at least prevent me from watching death coming for me. When IT HAPPENs. Lightening strike! All servers are down. We have lost all connections. Cannot email, cannot surf, cannot work and what makes it even more incredibly cruel --- It is LUNCH time. Time for all of us wage slaves to be burning up the bandwidth in our pursuit to relax during our 30 minute "lunch". So now...workless, surfless, printerless, hopeless.....everyone is forced to interact. The cube farms are abuzz with "conversation". My psycho cubemate has fashioned an aluminum "lightening rod" and has directioned the vertical blinds in my direction. But I have instructions....in the event of my death to use the plastic ruler an move my arm ever so slightly in the direction of his ungrounded chair. Meanwhile I notice that there is a seam of water...growing larger in the seam of the window and the floor next to my cubemate's cube. I tell him -- you are gonna fall thru the floor. But he thinks I will get electrocuted first. Time ticks on and I watch as my cubemate, de wired from production, homework, email, and web....knows not what to do.....While I on the other hand am typing furiouslyrecording every little detail for my blog....muah ah ah ah. Spy v. Spy... All of a sudden we consider that a lightening strike might actually net us a few days off. We consider making ourselves a cult....we will use office tape and tape pennies on our head/bodies....strike a pose...wait for the lightening to strike and take us to the "spaceship" Well....if the lightening won't take us, the white coats will. Our other cube farm mates have warned us not to tempt fate....however we have decided we would rather be an entry on FM99s Stupid News than die a nameless, faceless death in a cubefarm probably buried under files or stuck in the unemployment line. Still no server repair so my mind wanders to other trival matters like.....Remember the time we said we were the lucky ones because we got the cubes by the window? Have we condemned ourselves....it could happen, I have heard of stranger things. There is an offline card game going on in the other cube patch. I have found a new source of entertainment. I keep sneaking by and suprising them. I wonder if I can make them drop their cards. Well while the mice are away I shall type away on my notepad waiting to post to my precious blog...unless of course...my cubemate's aluminum foil lightening rod does its job.....netting me some days off from work....and depending on the severity of the strike....my precious blog. Well....maybe not if I can move my fingers and convince someone to buy me a notebook....dude I need a Dell! Omigod I think the servers are up, our spaceship dreams dashed! Work lurks around the corner and a heavy, weary silence has decended upon its occupants. Back to life....back to reality as soul 2 soul would say. I feel like I just lived a Ray Bradbury moment.....with a twist! Now I need to get a cocacola.

Must...stay...awake

Well....last night I made my own chat room for the first time and I made 2 new friends. One from Australia and the other from Egypt. That was the great thing....the not so great thing is I stayed up way late.....BUT I had fun. HOWEVER herein lies the problem....

Trying to kick my caffiene habit. I have a Cocacola $3.00 a day habit. I don't drink or smoke but I do have this habit. Must........not.....give...into fatigue....and....cravings. Because check me out....I was cocacola free YESTERDAY.

OH and Check THIS OUT EVEN BETTER......My dear, dear, dear friend just gave me an invite to get a gmail acct. (I love you man!!!) SO HA HA HA Oliv-ah , Sar-AH, and Tra-CEE (Trac I?) Who's the uber geek in training now!!! Love ya V!!!!!!

Well I best get back to wage slaving....but at least now my chains of servitude are a little lighter! Thank you V!!!

Tuesday, September 14, 2004

I am a Blog Moron.

On every break I am searching the web, fast and furious, on ways to make the blog look nice....but alas, I believe I am on the blog short bus, wearing a helmet, licking the windows. Perhaps with time and persistance....or more headgear...I, too, can have a blog worth reading. OK if anyone of yall out there in the blogosphere know where the blog instructions for the learning disabled are POINT ME TO THEM!! As Bartles & James would say...."thanks for your Support!"

OH YEAH and one last thing. I have been wanting a Gmail account for sometime. I understand this sort of thing is invite only. So I am at work with my fellow geek wanna be "friends" and somehow....they ALL have GMAIL accounts and are tormenting and taunting and teasing me with promises of an invite. Friends don't deny friends GMAIL.....ugh

Welcome to my World

Ok right now I am on "company time"....however never fear, I shall return w/more information and a little more knowledge....because as we know, a mind is a terrible thing.